That's cool. I've been dealing with that my entire Cajun fan lifetime. Some of us keep hanging in there and trying to build it up... against the odds... that's for sure. Others show up and expect it to loan them some pride. I am so proud of myself as a person, I am in this to loan some of that to UL.
I am perfectly ok with how you feel. When we accomplish something worthy of your participation... I will high five you upon your return... if you allow me to.